Disappointment

We all have had it. Let's face it - it's there. That void which sits at the pit of your stomach and slowly creeps to the surface? Yeah, that one. Where you start to cry uncontrollably. This is true about a lot of things, but when it comes to disappointment I feel it's more prevalent than a lot of other situations you endure.  As an actor, it's my best friend and worst enemy in so many ways. I remember being in situations where I did nothing but tear myself apart to the core, because of that scenario not going the way I had planned. I've learned to cope with this flaw that I have, and I've told myself, on numerous occasions, that I can't be too hard on myself. Life is too short to dwell on the negativity. I'm not perfect. In fact, I've learned to - quoting the title of my blog, and the premise of why I began this blog as well - find solace in knowing you're enough. Hanging picture frames where imperfections exist have been one of the things I strive to remind myself every single day. 

As I mentioned earlier, it can be a person's enemy or best friend. Most of you might be thinking, "How can this be a person's best friend?" I'll tell you why - you care. Yes, you heard me right. It means you care enough to be disappointed. If you didn't feel any sense of discouragement, then maybe you aren't completely devoted to that specific thing you are apart of or working on. Those are the moments I cherish. Part of working towards not beating myself to oblivion over a disappointment, I find myself, relaying in my own head, you care Ben - that's a good thing. 

Just remember: Life is too short. As Heidi would say, "Dance in the Rain Clouds." Be okay that you are upset, embrace the emotion, feel it, and move on. Don't dwell too long, because it's a waste of your energy. Spend that energy on rectifying the situation, not feeding the screw ups.